--Auguries of Innocence, by William Blake
born May 14
Suddenly wish that we are only flying off next week.
Maybe I'm just afraid to leave everything behind.
Hmms.
Need to settle some unfinished business that has been luring the emo outta me. I almost deleted my invitation to his blog. They tell me don't read, but I can't help it. Anyway there won't be any updates there for quite some time. He's gone away... somewhere. Tried to find out through him and that's what got me so miffed. -.- Emailed his bestie... hoping to get some sorta reply. I guess if I don't then too bad la.
It's not like I'm hanging on onto/for him... but I mean after so much time together I still care as a friend and I've finally decided to just acknowledge that I'm just some sorta past dream that he talks to or conjures up in his blog. Mustn't mustn't let him affect me so much. =(
On a brighter note, been trying to keep myself busy for this week so that time will fly fly fly and take me on her wings to some happyland full of happy meals. I'm still craving for hotcakes! Supposed to meet Zhiwei for drinks after French today, but it's kinda late so we gotta postpone. Lucky for me too la, after yesterday's jamming I doubt I can take any more booze. My cough actually recovered but yesterday high till come back in full force. I couldn't sleep last night and I think I'm coming down with fever and headache. Boos.
But still! Jamming was worth it. ^^ First time I actually had the guts(albeit dutch courage) to sing my heart out, lungs flat, stomach dead. Hee~ felt good venting ars. Thanks guys, esp dearest class rep Viv for organising ar! Next time I intro you more angmoh songs la. =p
Had some retail therapy today too. I love Springfield stuff. Wanted the guys stuffs la, butbutbut. can't splurge on unnecessary stuffs la. Still spent alot though, mainly 'cos of the formal wear. Oh. and I couldn't resist grabbing undergarments since Robinsons having sale. At least I never buy heels or shoes hor. =X Wrote many "I Love You" notes to Mum, so she won't stun at the amount of clothes to wash. xD I started packing for the trip already! Scared last minute I blur and forget dumb stuff. Dug up old jackets from the depths of my wardrobe. Need to wash those too cos me particular about smells and musky cupboard odours equals ee-yer. =X So please! Grant me good weather si vous plait! >.<
Received a call from NTU today, telling me to come for an interview for my 6th choice. Which happens to be my fave Lit. Supposed to apply for SMU by today as well. In the end I'm not considering either. I confirm plus guarrantee chop I only want an overseas tertiary education. So I shall really work first. Even if I don't get the Credit Suisse opening. But I better get it la ya. Think it offers the best benefits amongst everything else. ^^ *crosses fingers; you all better cross too then when I get my salary you all can force me blanjah* 3 more nights to endure. Things to look forward to: Dinner with Roy tomorrow. Thursday shopping. And supper with Ean so I will remember to eat after French. =D and possibly a crazy Friday night. Sat's brazillian wax is scary but promisingly fun. And yessss... lunch at Rice Table. Yums. Can't wait to get well soon. For the booze and mad partying. Wheee~~ =)))
P/S: Fangs, I miss you! Haven't heard from you in ages. Like DINOSAUR AGES. Drop me an email when ya's free hokies? *hugs & kisses*
倒帶
作詞:方文山 作曲:周杰倫
我受夠了等待你所謂的安排 說的未來到底多久才來
總是要來不及才知道我可愛 我想依賴而你卻都不在
應該開心的地帶 你給的全是空白
一個人假日發呆 找不到人陪我看海
我在幸福的門外 卻一直都進不來
你累積給的傷害 我是真的很難釋懷
終於看開愛回不來 而你總是太晚明白
最後才把話說開 哭著求我留下來
終於看開愛回不來 我們面前太多阻礙
你的手卻放不開 寧願沒出息求我別離開
你總是要我乖慢慢計劃將來 我的眼淚卻一直掉下來
過去怎麼交代你該給的信賴 被你親手緩緩推入懸崖
從我臉上的蒼白 看到記憶慢下來
過去甜蜜在倒帶 只是感覺已經不在
而我對你的期待 被你一次次摔壞
已經碎成太多塊 要怎麼拼湊跟重來
終於看開愛回不來 而你總是太晚明白
最後才把話說開 哭著求我留下來
終於看開愛回不來 我們面前太多阻礙
你的手卻放不開 寧願沒出息求我別離開
I wish dreams never happened. But I know saying that'd mean lying to myself. Still.
There's a reason why people use the word 'shatter' when dreams fall apart right?
Now I know.