--Auguries of Innocence, by William Blake
born May 14
Whatever Makes You Happy, by William Suttcliffe
Wonder if it's a coincidence that you wanted me to return this book... I read the synopsis and instantly bonded with the book:
In William Sutcliffe's new novel, the hapless gap-yearers of "Are You Experienced?" have given way to three men in their early thirties who are not (in the eyes of their alienated mothers) properly settled. Matt works for lads mag BALLS! and is a serial dater of girls half his age. Paul is an experienced hand at lying and evasion to keep his life choices a secret from his mother. Daniel spends his Saturday nights alone in his flat reading novels, pining for ex-girlfriend and love of his life Erin. The mothers decide to launch a co-ordinated attack: they will arrive, without warning, to stay with their sons for one week with the intention of man-handling them back onto the right path.
Rather, I felt extremely interested in the character named Daniel. One of the parts that struck me most...
Throughout the last decade and a half, Daniel's entire adult life, all other women had been measured in Erins. Or rather, in fractions of an Erin. And as this occurred to him, he realised he was definitely stuck, utterly lost, forever. Because even if he did meet the perfect woman - more beautiful than Erin, funnier, kinder, cleverer- he'd still be measuring her in Erins. She had become his calibration, and that would never change. She was engraved into him.
As things stood now, the only meaningful relationship in his life was with Erin's absence, and he could not imagine that ever changing. But he would never go back to her. She had humiliated and betrayed him. She had smashed his egg.
Daniel confessed to his mother that he had, as she thought, simply run away, from his life. But he didn't regret it. he didn't see an alternative. Physical distance was the only thing that helped him forget.
"But it hasn't helped you forget," she said.
"No," he replied, "But I remember less often."
Coincidentally... I recognise one of the cushions pictured in the book cover... It's a cushion cover that I have. Affinity with the damn book!! ^^ There's a couple of other parts that I felt strongly for... but it's too lengthy for me to want to type it out. =X
Revelations...
I learnt alot about myself these two weeks. And I've grown alot. I'm going to let go; yet I'm gonna continue trying. I wish I wish you know what I understand, feel what I feel, understand what I know. That I have nothing to lose, and that we only live once - regrets tend to be unavoidable, but I should strive not to do anymore bad.
Thanks a lot, Ste. For being really kind. And actually, amazingly understanding. i REALLY LEARNT PLENTY, though I don't know why I only managed to understand so much only recently. Ahas, I still can't believe you did something this crazy. Hope you have a safe trip back... I'm sorry I couldn't be a better host... And yes, I promise to write!
Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Arresting.
Baring.
Clamming.
Diminishing.
Evaluating.
Fretting.
Gasping.
Hearting.
Incurring.
Jarring.
Kindling.
Living.
Masquerading.
Nibbling.
Orgasming.
Pretending.
Questioning.
Regretting.
Sifting.
Trembling.
Understanding.
Volunteering.
Wilting.
XXXing.
Yielding.
Zeroing.